I Am Seriously Depressed, with No money, No friends, and No life, Where do I go now ?

I lost my mother to complication from kidney problems in 2005 and lost my father to cancer in 2006 when I was 17. Before my father passed away I was fortunate to get married and get pregnant with my daughter. I lost my daughter to SIDS in 2007 when she was 2 month old; I am divorced now with an EX who hates me and EX in-laws who have always hated me. I never did get the chance to graduate from high school because of my parents passing away. I lost my job last year and haven't been able to find another, I have no money to help with bills or food or even get a GED. I eat maybe a little meal during the day so as not to waste any food, I cook and clean the house, I make sure when my boyfriend comes home he has a meal waiting for him. His friends talk behind my back to him saying I am leeching off of him and isn’t it getting old. I look for a new job everyday I would even go to work at McDonalds but nobody hires anyone who didn't finish high school. I have really bad asthma that sends me to the ER for life threating reasons, where I stop breathing. I tried to get into a study for asthma so I could at least get some medicine to help with it but was rejected because it’s TOO severe and my Peak flow stayed the same even after using my inhaler. My best friend and only friend always wants me to be there when she has a problem but is never there when I just want to talk cause I have had a bad day. My boyfriend is always mad at me for something even if I didn’t do what he is mad about. Going back to not having money I can’t even talk to someone professional in getting help for me being depressed because I have no money and don’t qualify for state assistance because of my age and the fact I don’t have children. I just don’t want to be me anymore I want to die sometimes and end it all because at least I wouldn’t be a problem to no one anymore I just want my life back, I want a house that I can call home, and a partner who is there no matter what and is my best friend. Where do I go from here, how do I get help when there is no one I have no family, no money, no job, no friends, and no life. Where is my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, I am seriously asking for help, how can I help myself (Please don’t respond with smart remarks at my expense I truly want help) ?